I just dropped my eldest brother, Ethan, off at college today. How weird that he’s at the point in his life now that he is moving away from home and growing into an adult. I’m excited for him, though, because I know he’s going to do great things.
damn this is such a good song let me play it 86 times an hour until I hate it
i’m naming my kitten majin because she has a very prominent ‘m’ on her forehead and i text this to my brother and he replies: “a monument to their sins. you will forever be reminded of the sacrifices made to stay the power of babidi”
still don’t have internet at my apartment, baby chewed threw the wires. oops. i try to spend my time off from work with my little brother, so i’m hanging out in aurora for the night & wanted to use the opportunity to update my blog. it’s weird being so unplugged but i’m enjoying it more & more each day. living the good life, i’m really just happy to explore this new life.
i can also say i’m scared shitless, probably the most uneasy i’ve ever been about starting a new chapter. i started a new job & moved to a new city & broke up with my boyfriend all around the same time & it really intimidated me. it’s not like i’ve never done that before either, because honestly i did that 10 months ago when i moved to california & 2 years ago when i moved from pueblo & maybe it’s a trend i need to break haha even though the different components weren’t related. i’m just the kind of person who doesn’t think twice, i crave change & need it constantly in drastic measures. i live for getting the rug pulled out from under me & starting all over & rebuilding a different puzzle, a different life. but maybe this time is so scary to me because i’m actually holding myself accountable & that responsibility is something i’ve never really cared about. i didn’t care about quitting my jobs or moving away from town, i was scared of being tied down because i felt i didn’t have things figured out. & now i still don’t have things figured out but i know that what i’m doing now is really good & it’s only going to get better. i know what’s happening right now is important, so it matters to me to take it seriously.
i’m really so lucky to have the most incredible roommates, i literally couldn’t live without them. i’m so grateful that everything is shared & open. i didn’t want to show anyone my new space until everything was put together, i was just in this mindset where i wanted everything in order right away. i’ve always been that way, needing everything at once. but i’m appreciating the process in getting this place put together, it’s finding it’s own life & it’s exciting too see it unwind.